As promised – this is going to be a more detailed blog about my past two months of job seeking. The past few months have been very taxing mentally, however that one phone call made everything worth it.
Many people will tell you that job hunting is a full-time job – they are 100 percent correct. Looking for a job, tailoring your resume, writing cover letter after cover letter, researching the company and then waiting, is a full-time job! That whole process takes hours, days, months even – it is exhausting. In addition to being completely mentally exhausting, it also makes you feel completely inadequate. Rejection emails hurt, they hurt in an area of your heart that I didn’t even know existed. So, in addition to losing your mind from so much researching, cover letter writing and waiting, you also begin to doubt every decision you ever made after every rejection.
“Was it because I didn’t do enough? Did I not have the right experience? Should I have interned more? Should I have changed my major?!”
And that my friends, is what happens during the lows of job searching; it is not pretty, however, I think I learned more about myself in the past two months than I did my entire senior year.
For starters, I learned that I can no longer sleep in. In college, I could sleep in until 11 a.m. or noon, now, I am lucky if I make is past 8! I learned that I need to be doing something or I begin to go stir-crazy! I never knew how easily I can feel like I am losing my mind just because I am stuck in the house with nothing to do. I also learned that I am addicted to Apple. I mean I have been an Apple fanatic for a while, but now I am a Professional Fangirl. I love their products, and if you catch me after a keynote, I would even go as far as to say I need them. However, I have restraint and I know to patiently wait. I have also learned that I am very good at meditating. I have been practicing yoga a lot in the past couple of months and doing some simple meditation techniques every morning; it has really helped me to center my thoughts and myself. I was given these amazing Power Thought Cards from my old boss at the City of Gahanna for my birthday, and they really helped me during my two months of unemployment. Each day I would read the next Power Thought in the stack and they really helped me focus on the positive in my life. One of my favorite cards stated, “I am in the process of positive change, I am unfolding in fulfilling ways. Only good can come to me. I now express health, happiness, prosperity, and peace of mind.”
My personal growth has really helped me during the lows of unemployment. You prepare your resume, your cover letters, do your research on the company, but no one prepares you for what happens when you do hear back, if you even hear back at all. Out of the fifty-some applications I sent out, I probably only heard back from ten, that’s including rejections. It’s exhausting to put forth so much effort to not hear anything back, sometimes a rejection feels better than silence. No one likes the silent treatment. I was really thankful to all of my connections for reaching out to me during my low moments and offering me words of wisdom, or connecting with me outside of social media. It helped so much to keep me sane.
And just like that, when I felt like I couldn’t take it anymore, I got the call. The call saying I had been offered a position that felt like it was made for me. It was the silver platter of jobs. I would be doing social media, for a living! I am so excited to start this next step and to continue to learn about myself in the process.
Remember, when a wave comes, go deep.
“There’s three things you can do when life sends a wave at you. You can run from it, but then it’s going to catch up and knock you down. You can also fall back on your ego and try to stand your ground, but then it’s still going to clobber you. Or you can use it as an opportunity to go deep, and transform yourself to match the circumstances. And that’s how you get through the wave,” from a wonderful post on HONY (if you don’t know Humans of New York, I suggest you check out this amazing photo blog here).